Alpha Jacob's Untimely Repentance

Farrah’s POV

I lost my baby which I had no idea I was carrying in a wolf fight while my mate was with his Gamma.

It was upsetting and tragic, and I never thought that I would experience such a day.

“Oh no!” I yelled in panic as someone wrapped a blindfold around my eyes while I was walking home.

A growl left my attacker's lips as he said, “Don't try resisting me or you'll suffer!”

“Who are you? What do you want from me?!” I rushed out as I struggled against him.

The blindfold came off and I saw my attacker. There was actually more than one. Two of them were in wolf form while the one that blindfolded me was in human form.

“Who sent you?!” I asked them as I realized that they were not rogues since they didn't look feral.

“Alpha Heath of the Howling Wolves pack sent us to kidnap you since you're Jacob's Luna.” He answered me as he smirked.

Jacob was the Alpha of our pack, the Red Wolves pack, and he was my mate.

“I won't let you!” I exclaimed as I started shifting into my wolf.

“Don’t be silly, we outnumber you!” He yelled as another growl left his throat.

I refused to run away like a coward and growled back at them.

“Take her down!” He commanded the other wolves and they jumped on me.

I struggled against them as one bit down on my right foreleg. The other wolf headbutted my stomach hard and I felt pain overwhelm me.

I yelped and struggled harder. They got off me and I attacked the one that headbutted me. I bit down on his shoulder and he howled in pain then I threw him aside.

I jumped on the one that bit me and bit his neck, making him howl in pain.

I didn't let go until the one in human form pushed me aside.

He whimpered and got up, only to run away. The first wolf got up and ran away too.

Only the one in human form remained. He looked around nervously before moving his gaze back to me.

Fear and anger was evident in his eyes as his jaw clenched and he rushed out, “We'll get you another day!”

He ran away too and I shifted back to my human form.

I noticed blood trickled down my legs and the bite mark on my right arm was throbbing along with my stomach. I also felt dizzy as I tried to walk.

“Don’t look there, it's ill fortune.” I heard my mate, Alpha Jacob say.

I looked up to see him staring at the blood trickling down my legs.

He and his Gamma, Lisa, were in his car that had stopped beside me.

Even though he saw the state that I was in, he drove off and left me to fend for myself.

How could he say that? Why didn't he help me?

I felt sad, and I tried to take another step, but the pain overwhelmed me and I collapsed as I lost consciousness.

This was how I lost my baby.

On the day that I returned from the pack hospital, I found a lingerie lying on the floor of our bedroom.

I had felt so angry that I nearly tore the skimpy little thing.

I shook my head as I realized that I couldn't stay with Jacob anymore. He broke my heart and doesn't deserve to be with me.

I pulled out my phone from my purse and dialed the number of the Dean of the Standard West College, Mr. Peter.

He answered the call on the second ring, “Miss Farrah, how are you?”

“I'm good, Mr. Peter. I want to transfer from Harry Ford College to Standard West College.” I said confidently.

He sounded surprised as he asked, “Are you sure about this? Have you thought it over?”

“Yes.” I answered him.

He laughed and replied, “That's good news! I'll send you the transfer form through email as soon as I can.”

He hung up the call and I let out a breath; I was finally leaving Jacob.

Mr. Peter was my Dad's best friend and he has been suggesting that I enroll in his school ever since I was done with High school, and now, I would be transferring there.

Jacob entered the living room with his phone pressed against his ear, but when he saw me, he murmured, “I'll call you back later.”

Day and night, Jacob was on his phone either calling or texting someone. He wasn't like this before, it was only after Lisa became his Gamma.

Just like how he would come home late from work ever since Lisa became his Gamma.

“I think I heard you on the phone with someone. Was it your sister?” He asked me as he sat down on the couch beside me.

“Not exactly, it was Mr. Peter.” I answered him right before his phone beeped as a text came through.

“Mmmm.” He mused as he typed a reply on his phone.

It seemed that he wasn't paying attention to me. He would have asked who that was if he had been paying attention.

Was he texting Lisa? Was that why he wasn't paying any attention to me?

His lips tugged up into a smile as he typed faster, and I felt my chest tighten.

He doesn't smile at me anymore, but he was smiling at whoever he was texting.

“Where's my dessert?” He asked me as he looked at the empty center table.

Every night, I would make him some kind of dessert, but I usually made him cake.

After realizing how bad he was treating me, I decided to stop serving him.

“I didn't make it today.” I muttered coldly as I remembered how he drove away after seeing me in a bad state.

A look of confusion made its way to his face as he noticed the cold tone of my voice, but he didn't acknowledge it.

Instead, he said, “I've talked with Dr. Nelson and he has requested that you see him tomorrow morning.”

“But Dr. Aiden has already checked me and prescribed some medication.” I protested as a frown fell on my brows.

“Dr. Nelson is more skilled than Dr. Aiden and he’s our family doctor.” Jacob muttered with a tight smile on his lips.

“Fine, whatever.” I muttered as I nodded even though I didn't want to see Dr. Nelson.

Dr. Aiden was kinder and always spoke softly while Dr. Nelson was arrogant and rude.

Dr. Nelson has more certificates in the medical field than the other pack doctors and I think that was why his ego was so big.

I was taken to the pack hospital by a kind woman after I lost consciousness due to the wolf fight. That was what the nurse told me.

Dr. Aiden broke the news of my miscarriage and explained that he had to pop my shoulder back into its socket as I had dislocated it.

I have never cried as much as I have cried on that day. I didn't even know I was pregnant, and now, I've lost the baby.

My phone beeped as a text came from Mr. Peter. I checked it and it read, [Send me your passport photograph, it's needed for the transfer form.]

I typed a reply, [Okay.]

As I was looking through my gallery to find my passport photograph, I heard Jacob's ask, “What are you doing on your phone?”

I barely spared him a glance to see that he was looking at me curiously.

So he was now paying attention to me?

“Why do you want to know, Jacob?” I asked him as I selected the photo and sent it to Mr. Peter.

I looked up at him when I noticed that he has gone quiet to see a shocked look on his face.

He stuttered a bit, “I you Well, I just want to know. Besides, I'm your mate, I have to know what you're doing.”

“I'm not doing much, so don't worry about it.” I muttered as I looked back at my phone just as it beeped.

It was from Mr. Peter and he replied, [Received.]

“Are you texting?” He asked me as he stared at me with confusion written all over his face.

“Nope.” I answered him absentmindedly as I opened up Chrome to continue reading the comic book that I was reading online.

“Then what the hell are you doing?” He asked me again, sounding frustrated.

Before I could reply, his phone beeped, taking his attention away from me as he looked at the phone.

I felt relieved because I didn't want to him to know that I was transferring to another College which meant that I was leaving his pack and moving to another pack since it was closer to the new College.

A smile touched his lips as he typed a reply, but then he looked back at me and his smile disappeared, replaced by a frown.

He looked like he wanted to continue pestering me until I told him what I was doing, but then his phone started ringing.

As soon as he glanced at the screen of his phone, his smile reappeared and he answered the call as he headed down the hallway and towards the guest room.

He usually goes there to answer calls that he didn't want me to overhear.

“I miss you too, Lisa.” He murmured into the phone, but I heard him clearly with my heightened werewolf hearing.

He missed her? Wasn't he just at work with her? And he had the audacity to say that to her when knew that I would overhear!

“Our mate doesn't love us anymore.” My wolf, Willow, muttered in my head.

“Yeah, and that's why I'm done with him." I replied as a sigh escaped my lips.

"That's the right decision.” She replied, confidently.

"I think so too, but then I wonder, what if we don't find another mate?" I asked, my anxiousness showing in my voice.

"We will, don't worry.” She reassured me, and I found hope for a new mate.

My phone started ringing, taking my attention away from Willow. I glanced at the screen to see it was my friend, Amal, calling me.

I picked up the call and she rushed out, “Girl, you won't believe what I just saw on Facebook!"

"What happened? Spill!” I replied as I felt excited at hearing the latest gossip because I loved hearing about drama, especially Facebook drama, but then I heard her next words.

“Alpha Jacob just posted about Gamma Lisa, it's like he's in love with her or something." She answered me, sounding concerned.

The gossip wasn't so exciting when I realized that it has to do with my life.

I sighed and asked, “What does the post say?"

"Gamma Lisa is so patient. She wanted to go running with me, but I wanted to come home. I shouldn't have denied her. I apologize, Lisa. I'll take you up on your offer next time and try to be the best Alpha that you've ever seen.” Amal narrated then added, "I'll send you the link to the post.”

"How can he post about another woman and act like he's mated to her when he's mated to me?” I muttered as I felt pathetic.

I was the Luna, I deserve respect, but would I get it once the pack members saw the post?

“I know, right! He's such a jerk." She replied in a voice filled with anger.

“Listen, I need to go. We'll talk later, and don't forget to send me the link." I said as I tried not to cry.

"Okay, bye.” She said just before she hung up.

Her text came through instantly and I clicked on the link. I saw the post and noticed that he posted it using a different Facebook account.

My phone started ringing again and I saw that it was Mr. Peter.

I answered it and heard him say, “I've sent the transfer form to you. Have you received the email?"

“Not yet, but I'll check my email now. A delay occurs sometimes." I answered him.

“Alright." He replied and hung up.

I checked my email and saw the transfer form. I had to inform my College first thing tomorrow morning that I needed them to send my transcript to Standard West College.

Seeing Dr. Nelson would have to wait until I was done with that. I didn't have any classes tomorrow, so I would go in just to have them send the transcript.

The next morning, I walked into the kitchen to get a quick breakfast when I saw Jacob frying an omelet.

There were three containers of noodles on top of the kitchen counter and he placed the omelet that he had fried into one of the containers.

“You're cooking?!" I asked him as my eyes widened in surprise at the sight before me.

"Yeah, and this is for you.” He muttered as he pushed one of the noodle containers towards me, but I refused to accept it.

“Sausages make me bloated. I've told you this before." I said in a tight voice as I felt anger bubble inside my chest.

"I had no idea." He replied with a frown on his brows.

“Even though I told you at least a hundred times in our six years of marriage?” I asked, feeling frustrated with him.

“Not a clue." He answered me as his frown deepened.

“I'm always mentioning it. Anyway, why don't you give me the noodles with the egg?" I suggested and stretched my hand towards the container.

However, he grabbed it and pulled it out of my reach which made me frown.

I glanced at him, about to ask why he did that when he said in an icy tone of voice, "Since you don't like sausages, don't eat it, but you can't have the one with the egg.”

He obviously made it for someone special. Was that special person Lisa?

He has never cooked for me before, yet he was here cooking up the perfect dish for another woman.

“Who did you make it for?" I couldn't help, but ask as I dreaded what the answer would be.

Before he could answer, his phone started ringing. He pulled out his phone and glanced at the screen.

His lips tugged up into a smile as he answered the call, “Hey.”

He listened to the caller's reply before saying, “Just come over, and we'll go together."

He hung up after a few seconds and stared at the phone with a lovey dovey look on his face.

Who called him? Could it be Lisa? Deep down inside me, I knew it was her. He only acted like he was in love when she was around.

I pulled out the lingerie that I found in our bedroom from my handbag and handed it to him.

He took it from me with a guilty look on his face.

“Was it Lisa that left behind her lingerie?” I asked him in a cold voice.

"I you it's not what it looks like." He explained as he pushed it into his briefcase.

“Then what does it look like?" I asked, shaking my head in disbelief.

Before he could reply, I added, “You know what, you don't need to answer that. Just tell Lisa to be more mindful."

“I'll let her know." He replied as his eyes bounced around the room nervously.

“Why don't I drop you off at school today?" He suggested as he gave me a strained smile.

It was shocking to hear him suggest that because he has never driven me to school before. However, he always drove Lisa shopping.

I always go to school in a taxi and return home the same way.

What made him change his mind? Was he trying to kiss up to me because I caught him cheating redhanded?

“Are you sure you want to do that?" I asked to see what he would say.

“Yeah, of course. Are you surprised that I suggested driving you to school?" He asked me as his brows knitted in a frown.

“Of course. You've never driven me to school before." I replied as I crossed my arms against my chest.

“Well, I'm" He started, but he cut himself off.

His expression softened and a faint smile touched his lips.

I wondered what he was smiling about because he never smiled at me unless it was a strained one.

My question was answered when he said, “Lisa is five blocks away. She just mind linked me and I have to go meet her.”

Couldn't he let her come here and then they would go to work together, he had to go meet her?

I cleared my throat as he started towards the front door and asked, “What about me? You said that you'll drive me to school."

He paused, but he didn't turn around as he answered me, "Actually, I don't have time to drive you to school today. Maybe tomorrow.”

I felt my heart tremble in pain. How could he make another woman a priority over me?

“Don't you love me?" I asked him and watched as he grimaced like the aspect of loving me irritated him.

“Of course." He replied curtly then glanced back at me as he added, “I need to go right now ‘cause I don't want to keep Lisa waiting."

“Sure." I said in a whisper, knowing that he could hear me with his heightened werewolf hearing.

He bolted out of the house and with my heightened werewolf hearing, I heard him say, “Lisa, you're so fast. How did you reach here so soon?"

“Oh, I just couldn't wait to see you, so I jogged here." I heard Lisa answer him.

"I couldn't wait to see you either, dear Lisa." He murmured, but I heard him clearly.

He even called her dear, yet he never called me any pet names.

Did he care about her more than he cared about me?

The answer was clear.

“Why don't you stay at home and I'll come pick you up since your car is at the mechanic’s?" He suggested in a soft tone of voice.

“Yeah, sure." She answered him then laughed as she added, “You're the best, Alpha Jacob!"

"But you're the best!” He said with a chuckle.

"No, you're the best!” She protested and I felt angry at their betrayal.

They were acting like a loving couple when he was mated to me, and I was sure that they were having an affair.

“I made you your favorite breakfast dish; noodles with eggs!” I heard Jacob say to Lisa.

So I was right, he did make it for her.

“Whoa! You're such a good Alpha! I bet it tastes as wonderful as it looks!” She exclaimed with a small giggle.

Cooking wasn't one of the duties of an Alpha, so she must have been trying to cover up their affair because she knew that I was home and I could hear them. But then, why would she want to hide their affair from me?

She left her lingerie here on purpose and I was sure that she wanted to gloat to me that Jacob cared about her more than he cared about me. Maybe she was covering it up because of the neighbors. That sounded more like her.

“You know exactly how to make me smile, dear." He murmured as he laughed.

She giggled as she replied, “That was what I was thinking about you!"

They were acting like they were perfect match, but the truth was that they weren’t fated mates.

I scoffed and decided that I didn't want to hear anymore, so I stopped paying attention to their chatter and made my way to the fridge.

Two apples sat in the middle of the almost empty fridge, so I grabbed one and started eating it.

I would have cooked something up, but I just didn't have enough time for that since school was starting in fifteen minutes and I needed to be early if I wanted them to give me my transcript soon.

The College that she was enrolled in, Harry Ford College was one of the best Colleges in their werewolf territory. However, the one that she was transferring to, Standard West College was better than it.

It ranked higher in grades; it had more students that graduated with first class grades than Harry Ford College.

These Colleges were built to teach werewolves their way of life including their roles in their packs.

There were also high schools that did the same thing, but it included western education; the human’s education system.

I used to live in Amsterdam, the state where Standard West College was located as my parents were in the Black Wolves pack which dominated Amsterdam, but I moved to Michigan and joined the Red wolves pack after I met Jacob.

After finishing my apple, I made my way out of the house and locked it.

Twenty minutes later, I was walking into the ICT unit. They were the ones in charge of processing of results and transcripts.

The process took way too long that it was already noon by the time that I walked out of the school with my transcript in hand.

As I was waiting for a taxi, I noticed Jacob sitting in a restaurant that has a glass wall and Lisa was sitting across from him.

Weren't they supposed to be working at the pack office? What were they doing eating at a restaurant?

Jacob stopped taking me out to eat two years ago and that was after Lisa took over as Gamma.

They weren't close before, but after her mother who was the previous Gamma passed away, she took over as Gamma and became close to Jacob.

What would the pack members say when they saw him with her at a restaurant? Did he want to humiliate me?

I was pulled out of my thoughts when I overheard two of our pack members talking.

Claire was staring at the Jacob and Lisa through the restaurant’s glass wall as she squealed, “Alpha Jacob has taken Gamma Lisa out for lunch, isn't he so romantic?”

The other girl, Diana frowned as she replied, "He's already mated to Luna Farrah, so no, it's not romantic.”

"Oh, come on! He hasn't been seen together with Luna Farrah in a while. Besides, I'm sure that you're secretly rooting for Gamma Lisa!" Claire exclaimed as excitement oozed from her every pore.

“No way!" Diana protested, shaking her head.

“I'm sure that Alpha Jacob will leave Luna Farrah and mark Gamma Lisa. I mean look at how close they are!" Claire pressed on.

She grinned as she added, “They're even going on dates! I saw them at the movies two nights ago."

Before Diana could reply, two other pack members walked towards them and one of them, Charlotte joined the conversation as she said, “Yeah, if Alpha Jacob wasn't interested in making her his mate, why would he waste his time and money taking her to expensive restaurants and movie theaters?!”

"Exactly my point, Charlotte!" Claire exclaimed as her grin widened.

The last girl, Ashley, glanced at Jacob and Lisa as she said, “I saw them swimming in wolf form at hotel 17’s swimming pool yesterday."

I felt my stomach churn as I tried to process what I heard.

So they were going swimming when they saw me in an injured state and drove off!

How could they be so heartless?

Only mates went swimming in wolf form. That meant that they wanted to show everyone that they were together.

I had thought that I would be happy with Jacob when I accepted him as my mate, but now, I realized that it wasn't possible.

Dizziness washed over me as I struggled to remain standing. I couldn't even concentrate on what the shewolves were saying.

It wasn't until I stumbled and almost collapsed on the ground that they noticed me.

They all looked to side and they gasped in shock.

“Luna Farrah, are you okay?" Diana asked me as they came over and supported me.

“Don't worry, I'll be fine." I answered her as drew in a deep breath and let it out, willing the dizziness to go.

“You're obviously not fine. We're taking you to the pack hospital." Ashley said as Claire flagged down a taxi.

Just how pathetic did I look to them?

My mate was on a date with another shewolf and I was here, trying to stop myself from collapsing.

Ten minutes later, I was led into our bedroom at the pack house by Dr. Nelson after he gave me a full werewolf checkup at the pack hospital.

“I'll tell Alpha Jacob about your condition." Dr. Nelson said in a snobbish voice as he glanced at me.

I sat down on the bed as I nodded.

“Make sure to take your medication and relax." He added as he placed two bottles of tablets on the bedside table.

"Sure.” I replied in a soft voice since my head was throbbing so badly.

He turned around and made his way out of the room.

I laid down to relax, but sat up when I heard a knock on the door and then it opened.

Diana walked in with a guilty look on her face. She smiled sheepishly at me as she asked, “How are you feeling now?"

“A lot better." I replied with a smile touching my lips.

“Oh, yeah! Of course, you would feel a lot better since you're a Luna wolf and Lunas heal faster than average wolves." She rushed out as she slapped her forehead.

I nodded and replied, “Yeah."

“Did you hear our conversation earlier? Is that why you almost fainted?” She asked me as sweat gathered around her forehead, showing how nervous she was.

I didn't want them to think that I was more pathetic than they actually thought, so I decided to lie, “What conversation?"

Her eyes widened in surprise and then a relieved look made its way to her face and she replied, “Don't worry about it, it's nothing."

I let out a small laugh, feeling glad that she didn't pry any further.

She laughed too even though she looked confused as to why I was laughing.

“What about your friends? Where are they?" I asked her as I laid back down on the bed.

“They're waiting for me outside." She answered me and I realized that she was the only one among them that cared about me. Well, they did say that they were rooting for Lisa to be Jacob's mate.

The door opened before I could reply to her and we both turned to the door.

Jacob walked in with a scowl on his face.

“I'll be leaving now." Diana said as she looked between the two of us.

“Bye, Luna Farrah. Bye, Alpha Jacob!" She added as she walked towards the door.

“Okay, bye!” I called after her.

Jacob merely nodded at her and watched as she left the room, closing the door on her way out.

He walked towards me and stopped beside the bed, “Why didn't you call, text or mind link me about your condition? I had to hear it from Dr. Nelson.”

"Well, I wasn't feeling too good. Besides, I didn't want to ruin your perfect lunch with Lisa.” I retorted as I lifted my chin confidently.

"Who told you about that?" He asked as a panicked look shown on his face.

“I" I started, but he cut me off.

“Whoever it is, he's lying. Besides, I texted you to ask what kind of bracelet you wanted, but you didn't answer. So I bought the one that I thought you would like."

“I didn't hear my phone beep." I muttered in a stiff voice, not wanting to tolerate his lies.

How could he lie to me like that?

He pulled out a silver bracelet from his brief case and stretched it towards me.

I didn't feel loved by him like I used to whenever he showered me with gifts. I just felt hurt that he would lie to me and I was sure that he gave me this gift because he wanted me to forgive him after I found Lisa's lingerie.

I didn't take the bracelet from him, instead, I said, “I prefer earrings to bracelets. I've told you this before.”

"Can't you appreciate my gift even if you don't like it?” He asked me as disbelief shown on his face.

“Fine, give it to me." I muttered as I took the bracelet from him even though I knew he was gaslighting me.

He held onto the bracelet tightly, and shook his head, “You said that you don't like it, so I'll be giving it to someone else."

He looked angry as the scowl on his face deepened, but I didn't care. I felt just as angry.

So he didn't even plan on giving me the gift, he just wanted to play around with my feelings.

Before I could reply, he turned around and made his way out of the room.

My phone started ringing and I pulled it out of my purse.

Glancing at the screen, I saw that it was Amal and I couldn't help, but smile.

“Hey, I heard that you've been admitted into the pack’s hospital after seeing Alpha Jacob having lunch with Lisa.” She rushed out in one breath.

So those were the rumors! Who was spreading these rumors? Did they want me to lose the pack members’ respect?

“That's not exactly what happened. I did see them, but I didn't get admitted into the pack hospital. I was just taken there to see Dr. Nelson because I was feeling dizzy.” I replied without telling her about what I heard before I became dizzy since I didn't want her to know.

It was so embarrassing for people to know that I was being cheated on and it was even more embarrassing for them to find out how much it affected me.

She sounded sympathetic as she said, “Oh! So that's what happened. How are you feeling now? What did the doctor say is the cause of the dizziness? I hope it's nothing too serious.”

“Yeah, it's nothing serious, just stress." I replied, feeling better already as I realized that I still have people that care about me.

“Oh, you poor thing. Don't worry, you'll feel better after resting." She cooed like she was speaking to a baby.

I couldn't help, but laugh which made her laugh too.

“By the way, I saw Lisa post about gifts that Alpha Jacob bought her. I'll send you the link to the post.” She muttered in distaste.

Before I could reply, she added, "I need to go, talk to you later.”

"Okay, bye.” I replied and she hung up.

My phone beeped and I checked it to see that it was Amal.

I clicked on the link and saw Lisa's post.

I read it out loud, “Alpha Jacob just bought me a set of jewelry! Isn't he so sweet?"

Under the post was a picture of a golden bracelet together with a golden necklace and golden earrings.

I scoffed in disbelief. So he bought her a full set while he bought me only a piece and it was even ordinary, not made out of gold like hers.

My phone beeped and I saw a message on Facebook from Lisa. We weren't even friends there, but she sent me a message.

I felt curious and viewed it.

It was that same post and I realized that she shared it with me.

She texted again, [Alpha Jacob told me that he gave you a silver bracelet to cheer you up, but you refused to accept it. I can give you mine if you prefer gold.]

She acted like she was being nice, but I knew that it was a ploy to make me feel bad.

She wanted to show me that Jacob cared about her more than he cared about me.

Anger bubbled inside my chest and I frowned.

I wanted to ignore her, but I knew that I should put her in her place since I was her Luna and I deserved her respect.

So I typed a reply, [I already have a gold bracelet with earrings, a necklace and an anklet. Jacob bought them for me on the day of our anniversary.]

Her reply was instant, [Oh.]

“Your reply is amazing! She won't try disrespecting you again!” My wolf, Willow exclaimed in my head.

“But she'll still be disrespecting me since Jacob is having an affair with her." I replied and a sigh escaped my lips.

Willow grunted then said, “But she won't try messing with you again."

“Yeah, you're right." I said as I grabbed one of the bottles of medicine and poured one pill onto my hand.

I did the same with the other bottle then took the glass of water from the bedside table and used it to take the medicine.

“What does our mate even see in her?" Willow pondered.

“No idea, and remember, he won't be our mate for long." I reminded her as I placed the glass cup back on the table.

I climbed out of bed and walked to my chest of drawers.

I opened my large suitcase then pulled out my dresses from the set of drawers first, followed by my skirts and tops and then underwear, toiletries and makeup.

It took me hours to pack, and when I was finally done, I felt relieved.

I was leaving Jacob and going back to my old life!

I will never come back after I leave this time.